chapter one "A Grief Observed"

How C.S. Lewis explains the troubles and questions he goes through sheds light on how much God is in the world. "Meanwhile where is God?" Even though C.S. has trouble finding God in this dark time of his life, I am encouraged by the fact that God is everywhere in this world because he wants to be. "We have seen the faces of those we know best so variously, from so many angles, in so many lights, with so many expressions-walking , sleeping, laughing, crying, eating, talking, thinking-that all the impressions crowd into our memory together and cancel out into a mere blur." This quote from chapter one made me think of all the things in which God is present because he made all that is good. Here is a verse from Romans that explains what I mean; "They know the truth about God because he has made it obvious to them. For ever since the world was created, people have seen the earth and the sky. Through everything God made, they can clearly see his invisible qualities-his eternal power and divine nature. So they have no excuse for not knowing God." I understand that in times of deep troubles, God can seem non-existent, I've felt this way before. But, the fact that you cannot feel God does not mean he is not there. I strongly believe that people encounter tragedies because they are a part of life. Things happen because sin is apart of our nature. As a Christ-follower, C.S. Lewis knows that without trials and troubles one's faith cannot be tested. He is just having a hard time understanding why this love was taken away when it seemed like it had just started. The funny thing is that H. and Lewis both knew they would face separation yet they still chose to love each other. This speaks volumes of encouragement concerning God's love for us because his love is far greater and more perfect than our human love. How do we know this? Well, as you can see from the first chapter of this book, C.S only focuses on his pain, and even feels guilty because he thinks he is an embarrassment to others. On the other hand, Jesus came to earth thinking about our pain and grief. His whole earthly ministry revolved around serving others, not his human desire to stay comfortable.