Adam :/

I wonder what it was like..
How did the grass feel between your toes?
Did mosquitoes ever bother you?
I bet you were never frightened
because you had Him with you.
What was the temperature like?
Was it all you had hoped and imagined?
I bet you never went hungry,
I bet you never had a boring moment.

How could you have messed up so badly?
The grass cuts my feet.
The mosquitoes bite at my flesh!
I am frightened because I know things are out there to get me in the dark.
I am hungry and cannot eat the wild fruits because they are poisonous.
All this happened because you fell.

But there is still beauty in this fallen world.
I can still find satisfaction through the pain I endure.
I can still recognize the beauty of this world.
But I can only imagine what it looked like back in your time.
The withered trees and the oily waters seem to tell me of their glory days
when their leaves were vibrant and waters were crystal clear.

I have to listen so intently though to hear nature
I bet in your days before your fall, the trees and waters shared in your joy.
But now, now they moan and talk about "back then."
And sense I am your son, I am disconnected with this world just as you were.
It runs in the family.
The only difference is, is that you lived in a time where you saw true beauty.
So what I see is true beauty in a fallen world.



I went to Lake Bonny Park for this field trip, and I stayed there for at least 45 minutes.
My time spent at Lake Bonny park was a very eventful visit. I will do it more often. The thing that got me was the fact that it was Halloween night, around 7 o’clock, when I went for my visit, alone. I was startled a bit when I heard things in the dark. It sounded like something was being eaten. The mosquitoes were very annoying and I must have run into at least 30 spider webs as I walked along the 1.3 mile long walking trail. My head was filled with many different types of thoughts. Some of the thoughts took me back to past memories of my childhood. The trees along the trail reminded me of the trees that bordered my Nana's house out in the North Carolina country. The smells of fresh pine, dirt, and flowers helped me escape the real world for a second. For a short period of time I felt like I was not even in Lakeland. I did not know where I was. I even had the sensation of being watched by nature. I imagined what nature would say to me. Would it say, "Look at that human, what is he doing here? His race destroys us! Go away!" I was mesmerized by the beauty of the setting sun over the trees and the faint wind that sent the scents of the fresh vegetation to my nostrils was very welcomed. I thought back to how this earth must have been when Adam and Eve lived together in the garden. My mind was captured by the beauty around me that imagining what it was back then made me sick. It also made me mad at Adam! I felt like he messed it up for me. Then this reminded me of all the bad things I was capable of. I found that being in nature probably brought out the true nature of my being. Here I am, a person in this big world that has intricate systems and layers. Being in nature made me realize that I am much more intricate than a single tree or bush. But nature relies on each other for so many things, and in this way it was a good reminder for me that I need to be in community with others in my "ecosystem" and with the maker of it all. So yes, nature did bring out my flaws and also brought me joy. It provided a much needed escape and awakening for my being.